Perspective Check

Sometimes I forget that just by believing something is true, I make it true.  Truth is a subjective concept.  Perspective changes everything.  Have you ever looked at a sign, and when you read it said one thing, and when you read it again it said something different?  How about mistaking a speck of lint for a spider?  You know what I mean?  So, if I'm looking at that speck of dust thinking its a spider, I may feel anxious and I may go over there and dance around on it to be sure its dead.  I may go get a broom to sweep it out the door with, or I may change my view to be sure that it really is a spider.
 I just had an experience where I sent an application to several places to receive a service.  I had a few of them that just did not respond to my application at all.  Since I had an item on my application that I was feeling strong guilt about, I assumed that those places saw me as a bad person, or thought I was cruel because that's how I feel about the situation.  A friend asked me if that's what they said and  I had to reply that I didn't know because I hadn't talked to them.
Perspective.....  The only perspective I have is clouded by my own feelings of guilt and pain.  Is it the truth?  Probably not.  I'm sure there are other reasons why I may not have been contacted.  Perhaps, the service was no longer available.  Perhaps they are out of town, and haven't checked their messages.  Maybe they never got the message.  Maybe they forgot.  I really have no idea why the did not contact me.  Does it matter?  I got what I needed anyway.
So here i sit in judgment of myself over a single possibility out of many.  Why?  Perspective clouded by my own judgment.  Thanks to good honest and loving women, I have learned that perception is not truth.  Perception is simply the lens that I use to see the world.  The truth is unknown......